Love Ache

In the four corners of my room, I lie awake and stare at the white ceiling waiting for Handsome Nurse to go online and hoping we can chat.  But to my dismay, it has been three days or so that he did not show up.  I wonder what happen to him and what on Earth he have been doing.  It bothers me much that he did not communicate with me and the last message that I received was just a simple word calling me but too bad I was not able to catch him online.

Worries and pain enveloped my whole being as I do not know where this relationship is going and will still there be a chance that this will work out.  Yeah, I am ranting about our long distance relationship.  It is so hard to be in this kind of dilemma as I do not have the assurance if he is only mine because for real I am only for him.

My mind and heart are of the same rhythm that I should hold on but a part of me is telling me that I should let go and move forward from where he left me.  Argh~ I just hate it when I am on the state of being deranged and confusion because I cannot step one foot forward.  Guess, I just love my Handsome Nurse so much that I am willing to sacrifice and take a risk whether this relationship will work or not.

It may hurt big time and takes time to heal my wounded heart but this is what I am into so I have to accept and face whatever the consequences it may bring.   Hopefully before I go insane and paranoid he will show up 😦

Office Inferno

Holy Sh** I cannot help but curse because for crying out loud, the office spells sizzling hot! Seems like I laze under the scorching heat of the sun since the air conditioner was damaged.

This is totally and purely torture and damn those employers of ours who don’t have the consideration to care for their employees who are suffering from this total bull shi*. Geez, when will they realize until we will experience all types of lung diseases?

Gosh, I feel so stinky and dehydrated right now as the office exudes HOTNESS! I want to swim in a cold crystal clear pool or bathe myself with cold water!

LSS: Your Love Is My Drug

Your Love Is My Drug

by: Kesha

Lyrics

Maybe I need some rehab
Or maybe just need some sleep
I got a sick obsession
I’m seein it in my dreams
I’m lookin down every alley
I’m makin those desperate calls
I’m stayin up all night hopin hitin my head against the wall

What you got boy, is hard to find
I think about it all the time
Im all strung out my heart is fried
I just cant get you off my mind!

Because your love your love your love is my drug
Your love your love your love
Your love your love your love is my drug
Your love your love your love

Wont listen to any advice
Mommas tellin me I should think twice
But look into my own devices, im addicted its a crisis
My friends think ive gone crazy
My judgments gettin kinda hazy
My steeze is gonna be affected if I keep it up like a love sick crack head

What you got boy, is hard to find
I think about it all the time
Im all strung out my heart is fried
I just cant get you off my mind!

Because your love your love your love is my drug
Your love your love your love
Your love your love your love is my drug
Your love your love your love

I dont care what people say
The rush is worth the price I pay
I get so high when your with me
But crash and crave you when you leave

Hey, so I got a question
Do you wanna have a slumber party in my basement?
Do I make your heart beat like an 808 drum
Is my love your drug? your drug?
Huh, your drug?
Huh, your drug?
Is my love your drug?

Because your love your love your love is my drug
Your love your love your love
Your love your love your love is my drug
Your love your love your love

Because your love your love your love is my drug
Your love your love your love
Your love your love your love is my drug
Your love your love your love

Hey, heyy, sooo
You love, your love your love, is my drug
(She says) I like your beard

Blah!

It’s been quite a while since I did not blog. A lot of things happened in my life. I don’t know where to begin because tons of mixed emotions have been dwelling inside my fragile heart. Hope all things will end well. *sigh
I will be taking a long hiatus as of this moment, then write back about my chronies once I feel absolutely fine. 🙂

Here’s my two cents: May 10, 2010 Philippine Election

As of this writing, there are 5 days left before the May 10, 2010 National Election, another history will be made in our beloved country, Philippines.  Let us make this history remarkable and meaningful.  Do not vote for a certain candidate just because your bets have the slimmest chances in winning.  Vote who you think is rightful and deserving to sit in the highest position in Philippine office.  Your one vote can make a big difference.  Do not be swayed by a candidate whose parents have brought a great legacy  in our nation, a candidate who’s famous with this so called “sino ang tunay na mahirap [who’s the real underprivileged]” commercial ad and a candidate who had been jailed because of corruption and plunder issues.  Be swayed by a candidate who has the complete if not perfect attributes to lead for a progressive Philippines.
Determining the best candidate to rule our nation is not just about having a good heart because being in the highest position in the country is a no easy task.  It requires more than a kind hearted attitude, a president must have the intelligence, visions for good governance, a man of principle and the passion & determination of helping the nation to aim and thrive for progress not just through words and promises but putting it in actions, which will help the people and the country itself to move forward.
After how many decades of electing people for the presidency position, Filipinos should be awake right now and should and must not be influenced on who’s famous or not based on crap surveys, with what they have seen on TV, heard on radios, receiving money from bribe politicians, read on papers and biggest artists supporting and convincing people to vote for him or her.  Hope with this coming election on May 10, Filipinos should  be much wiser and intelligent enough to vote  for the one who will bring the REAL CHANGE that we have been hungry over the past years.
Sometimes, I ask, do some people know the exact meaning of the the two words “VOTE WISELY”? Perhaps not, because if they do, guess we won’t be whining, complaining and blaming that the elected president did not do more to help our lives to improve for the better.  Now, if we want to live comfortably just like the rest of First world countries experienced, why not start the change within us? It is in ourself that the great and real change starts to happen.   I  remembered what the great John F. Kennedy said “Ask not what your country do to you but ask what you can do to your country”.  Hence, we are the right person to do the perfect change that we have been wanting for the longest years and make it turn into reality for a better nation and for the future generation.  May we instill these in our minds and put into application that we must VOTE WISELY.
Hence, I THINK THEREFORE I AM FOR GILBERT “GIBO” TEODORO =b [biased I may be but he is the only candidate that I have high hopes that will bring the Philippines and its people for prosperity and development to be a part of that so called First World Countries, dreaming much? Yeah I am, but dreaming is for FREE and I dream for good.]